Have you ever experienced so much emotion in one day?!

Yes, I think that December 31, 2008 is worthy of at least three posts.  So much emotion flowed in me this day.  The most beautiful and historic moment as a parent was a definite highlight.  But do not forget, how good I felt after watching the perfect movie to bring in the new year - Flash of Genius.  One of those, the good-guys win sort of movies.  So I had this warmth of hope lingering in my heart as we drove home in the last few remaining minutes of 2008.  Jaron was reviewing all the events of Madagascar 2 (the movie the kids watched before joining me for the last 30 minutes of Flash of Genius) while Skyler chided him at missed parts and whenever his voiced betrayed his boredom at telling me everything.  Though Jaron insisted still on telling me.  By the time we got home and plugged in the car, it was one minute to midnight.  We heard the nearby firecrackers and screamed a "Happy New Year" greeting and listened to the cheers in the neighbors homes.  This was proceeded promptly by two boys temporarily possessed by rip-roaring emotional conflict.  So my first minutes of 2009 were spent rolling my eyes heavenward for strength!!  This was followed by an emotional rollercoaster and a LOT of effective, hard-nosed self-talk and the realization that I will be doing a lot of this coaching in my head to get though my issues, to get myself back into a life worth living.  Oh boy, I was mad, I cried, I cried happy tears and I cried mad and stressed tears, and I even longed and denied myself that longing (it's in my own best interest).....................Perhaps just a quick pre-summary of the year to come.  But in my current place of courage, I say, 'bring it on!!'.